Milly

A happy happy day. 10 kg gone. Finally. So much happiness so much joy but also i know itll be even harder from now on.

After 2 months food is talking to me like eaaaaaaaaat meee eaaaaat me, but still resisting with some small sins not too often. Hopefully everything will turn out better and better. My health issues came back again. Waiting for another MRI. And a stupid wedding coming. How a wedding can be stupid? Im a maid of honor of a girl i havent seen for at least 4 years but who all of the sudden thinks we’re best friends even though last time she didn’t even want to talk to me. No one even asked me if i want to be , they just announced. Bleh bluh blurgh. But the weight loss! Thats my bright star in those sad hard moments.

Oh and please keep finger crossed for me in 2 weeks on 29th. Im going on a casting to a tv show. U  guess lyrics of famous songs and get money for it. Im really good in it but that’s not enough to get in so just wish me luck. I hope i wont chicken and not go.

Today at 9 Am a plane with our president his wife and many high officials crashed near Smoleńsk in Russia. All the passengers and the whole crew died.

Our president, our bishops, our politicians, whole military commandement died while on the way to Katyń.

Most of you probably dont know what Katyń was. It’s a place where russians during WW2 murdered over 20000 polish prisoners. Now, on the way there, to remember about those victims, almost whole political opposition died.

I have to admit my political sympathy wasn’t with them. I didn’t approve of our president but whether he was good or bad in his duties, he was still the head of our country that i respected a lot. Many bad things were said about him while he was still alive, but now everyone here is in grief.

There is no words to describe such a tragedy so what i just want to say is Rest In Peace [*] [*][*]

Wow. I never thought i say that but i actually love my diet way of eating. Sure i can’t eat out for now and i have to skip some of things i used to abuse but hey, i get so much more in return.

My diet is no longer my enemy. It’s something i welcome with my heart opened.

Now every day i feel better. Even if i overeat which is allowed in protein diet it goes away fast. On the beggining my stomach was dying as it usually does. But now second week started and it’s all gone. No more stomach pain, no problems. My diet gives me strength, will to fight, and if i give it my time it rewards me with weight loss.

Today i had such a huge sugar urge. yesterday i went to shop a bit with my mom. B ecause of easter some places near us were still close so we had to go to a small shopping mall. I was looking for my light food and such and my mom got donuts for her and my dad >_<

And here’s another amazing thing. I got my awesome sweet portion without hurting my diet ^_^

Made myself the greatest omelette ever with some sweetener and some light cottage cheese i fixed with sweetener too. I think an omelette never tasted better.

Finally i found a way of eating, losing weight and not getting irritated every single day. Not losing will, not losing my courage to go on.

I just love the way i eat now and that’s the best way to go on!

Easter came and went by and i didnt gain weight.

I follow my diet this time strictly. There was no “a piece wont do  harm” thing. Also the whole family was trying to help me out so it’s way easier. Not only didn’t i gain any weight. I checked today and i lost a bit again. Happy happy joy joy.

im really shocked i can be strict with myself but i guess that all the hormons issues that i had those past couple of years made me stronger. Before i had an excuse that i can’t do anything because im sick. Now im all good and holding my life in my own hands.

If i can’t do it then no one else can!

Blurgh, thats a bad day today. Got my period. That explains it all i guess. Pain and misery.

But besides that everythings nice. Lost 2 pounds more, 1 kilogram. Feels great. Protein diet really works miracles and i can keep eating what i love most. Chickeeeeeen.

Tomorrow starts my phase to so i can start eating vegetables again. That totally rocks. I think ill eat more vegetables than i would ever normally do.

yesterday we went to Pizza hut. I think that was the biggest trial ever but i made it through! My bf ate a pizza (he asked me like 100 times if im sure its ok) and i was drinking loads of pepsi light and felt quite ok. Really proud of myself.

Diet goes good, feeling is bad but ill survive i will surviveeee hey hey! ^_^

Hello fellow buddyslimmers!

Took a long break, that’s for sure. Gave up, got bad with health but that is no more! Im back and im giving my best again!

Started a protein diet and feeling on it great. It has results, it works for me and im as happy as it can get.

I told u all before i got some health thyroid problems. Got pills, getting healthy, all is fine and life is great again.

Hopefully itll go as great as it seems to be.

Ill keep u posted on everything!

Edit: I forgot to mention a lot changed this last year. Cut hair short, changed color to blue black, got a nose ring. Posted a new pic for all to see.

Havent been here for a while. I decided that the main power of weight loss has to be in me. It cant work like “no site, no diet”. I have to work on it so im here less often.

I think i told u about my MRI. That it came clean…

yeah

thats what my mom told me before.

She picked the scans yesterday

so now it appears yay i dont have an adenome on pituitary gland, instead i have cyst on pineal gland so i have to be under control and wait for futher MRIs. So horrible :/

Guys i havent read anything here for a while. Christmas and new years were such a crazy period. So much work. I had my prom on saturday.

I always get used by others… always help, always want to do my best and they just use it… was same this time

Ive spend my whole christmas on making a prom movie. Spend hours days and nights. Of course our teacher gave credit to someone else cause she hates me. She congratulated someone else even though my class mates said it was all my work. NVM. Ive got most brilliant new year ever. I went with my bf to the mountains. Spend a week far away from civilisation, relaxing with my loved one. It was the best time of my life. I love him even more now if its possible.

The prom went ok and ive heard so many woooows about the movie. I was the editor, i also played in the movie. It was first movie i made so i learned everything on it. But i tr5ied so hard i made special effect sound editing, everything. My colleagues really appreciated it,teachers too, but not our lead teacher meh

If u would be interested in seing it its posted on youtube in 2 parts

part 1:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=azvtZjG0wxM&feature=channel_page

part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EntnnOEH5aY&feature=channel

I know u wont understand anything of it, but im so proud i made it that i want to share it with whole world.

I gained 2 kgs during christmas but thats not much and i know i can lose it again.

Oh ill also post some photos from my prom maybe. For now heres some taken before i left home. I changed my hair color. Now its black&red and it looks waaaycooler than before

had some problems with my dieting lately. Gained a bit this week so ive decided i need to make some changes.

I have problems with exercicing, so ive decided to not exercices like any program, but use the thing i used before. Not follow the amounts though. So instead of doing 4 series in a row and feel bad ive decided to do like 2-3 series throughout the day. Also had some problems with putting food to my food journal. Have to put almost eeverything in my custom food. Christmas drawing near, so much food that doesnt even have a name in english. Im counting calories anyway! But not always writing it down.

maybe its not the best motivation but lately ive got such a big urge to eat a pizzaaaaaa amagad its so horrible. So ive decided that itll be my prize if ill get under 80 kg. Wont eat too much of it so i wouldnt gain but still…. thats something to fight for!

Hugz for all u guyz. Hope christmas preparation are going well. Here its already cooking for 3 days

Helped my mom this year with fishes. She says im weird cause i dont have problems with cleaning them from insides and such… moh… at least one person at home has to be weird to do it!

Oh and i got second place on the shooting competition!

Im so happy today. I thought my eating wasnt the best this week. I mean, i keep the calories strictly but not always with good food, menitioned it before. Now christmas is coming and the stuff theyre cooking… O_O I tried to delay my weight in as much as i could to not bring myself down but i did it today…..

I’ve lost 2 kg! 4,5 lbs!

Im so shocked and  so happy i just cant say it. Its such a motivation boost. Ive dieted many, many times but never went under the edge of 85. Now its 84 kg! I feel so great, so joyful, so excited. I just got new energy for the road i still have to go. Many people say counting calories doesnt make a difference, but im so happy with it.It made the dieting so much easier for me. I also love ur support, and great afvices without which i wouldnt make it to this point and give up long ago. Thank u guys

Big hug and a sprinkle of happiness for u all